Where should I begin? I feel like my words my are going to fail me, but let me tell you a little something about him.
I am more free with him than I have ever been or even ever thought I could be with another soul in all my life. It’s incredible and somehow it just continues to get better and better. It’s mind blowing to constantly connect with another soul on such a deep level, whether it be physically, mentally or emotionally and it’s beyond my tiny human brain’s comprehension. But my god, his love is extraordinary!
Let me break it to you though–we’re not “perfect” by any means! Nothing in life is ever perfect, and we are both the first to admit that we’re sometimes far from it. We have our highs and lows, but those lows are just drops in the massive oceans of highs. We have our disagreements, arguments and misunderstandings that usually seem bigger than they actually are in the moment; we are human after all. We’re both stubborn and passionate and we can kind of act like assholes to each other at times–warranted or unwarranted, that’s always up for debate.
But with all that said, I truly believe that our purpose at the very end of whatever this life is, is to walk through this life together–hand in hand, side by side. I can assure you that I’ve never been more sure of anything in my entire life. He makes me strive to be a better person everyday. He makes me believe that good men still exist. He makes me believe that real men stick it out and stay even when things get tough; even when so many others have shown me otherwise. He protects me as if his life depends on it. He makes me genuinely believe that I do deserve the love he gives me; constantly, unwaveringly, and unconditionally.
He has changed me. He’s unhinged me. He’s completely dismantled me like no one else has ever been able to do. Of course, that comes with the exception of becoming a mother which is the most important and greatest accomplishment in my life.
To just put it simply, I am a better me because he loves me and accepts every single part of me and who I am. But it doesn’t end there… I am humbled by his grace and the love and acceptance he has for my child. He is a fierce protector and a steadfast loving male role model for my child. His heart is kind and pure. His love is solid and ever endearing. In this moment I don’t think I could love him any more; but then again, I thought that exact thing just the moment before.